“My wife had gone through 20+ hours of excruciating, induced labor, most of which was without anesthesia because the only anesthesiologist on call was tied up in a long surgery. There was a complication placing the epidural which lead to Satoya leaking spinal fluid… pain on top of pain!
I began to think about the 3 pregnancy losses we had prior to this moment and all the hurt and pain we felt. I thought about all the things that my wife had to endure physically, emotionally and mentally up to this moment. It felt like a streak of bad luck. So I was angry, I was sad because I wanted my wife, my best friend, to win… I wanted us to win! I didn’t want my wife to feel any more hurt and pain… no more complications. We wanted our baby girl in our arms safe and sound!
I had butterflies in my stomach; I wondered if everything would be ok, I was also a little afraid of what kind of dad I would be; I love my wife so much that I couldn’t imagine having room in my heart for someone else, I was afraid that I wasn’t ready. I felt in-over-my-head and I felt ashamed of my feelings but it was how I felt. While in surgery out of nowhere I hear a baby’s cry! The nurses cleaned her off quickly, wrapped her in cloths and placed her in my arms crying. With wide eyes opened she then stared into my eyes deeply and immediately she was silent! She was mine… my little girl and I was hers… her father – Jason Foster”
Artist Biography: Emily Lapish is a full-time photographer, wife, mom, and crazy person. She likes long walks through Target while cradling a latte. She is fueled by passion for restoration, grace, and also by obscene amounts of coffee.
Location: Chattanooga, TN